destiny's child - if

a ballad which sounds as if still trapped in the torpor and sentimentality of immediate breakup blues but the lyrics are post survivor revelatory: if you think I caught a feeling when I heard about that other chick (no) / i already knew about it / i just needed time just to clear my mind and ask myself / (why I didn’t handle him). dc always surviving and never giving anything back! 'if' is ravishingly beautiful but it scares me like if this is what you think to yourself when you're gently reflecting then how unforgiving are you on the bus into town with your loud friends?? everyone will hear. i feel like i really did done do beyonce and michelle wrong (kelly wishes!), "playing around with them raggedy heffers" (i know wtf) and look, just stop surviving for five minutes so we can talk!

but all this isn't to say i can't relate, ok! it's also amazingly real because it's all well and good on shiny going-out anthems but to be steely even while wrapping up warm alone on a winter's night and reflecting is exactly what it takes to survive! probably?